I BELIEVE

A Cadets love story All day i kept finding time and guts to make the call. Finally, got the phone free as well. Trust me; the nervousness was more than my first jump from the ten meter board! Trin... trin...... (%$#@&*)...... Trin.... trin..... "Hi! Busy are you?". "Took so long, to take the call." " Avijit !!!!".  Khyati screamed. "Where on earth have you been?? and no no not busy. Unknown, outside Delhi number so i wondered.....ANYWAY... How are you? Finally got time to call eh? Didn't even tell me before leaving, you jackass!" {{Yea sure! you stood me up.. switched off your phone and acted like a psycho and I get to be the jackass}}  Well of course this was just me speaking to myself. All I could manage to say really was, "hmm.... ya... got busy..". "You tell me how are things at your end?" I have no idea in which inauspicious hour I asked this question and BAM the dam of stories broke.... from ragging, ...

She speaks..... What to do? When you have to choose between what is right and what makes you happy. Although going with what makes you happy is always the rosier option but they say, what is right will eventually make you happy.  I was not sure, I just couldn't reach a decision so escaping the situation was the easiest way out and that's exactly what I did. Yes, I stood him up. What could I possibly tell Avijit? How could I ever explain the mess I had created in my head which ultimately made things messier. He's the kind, who would take life as it comes. Thinking and planning just don't exist in his dictionary. Telling him that, "even though the feelings are mutual, I can't get into a relationship with you", would have made things weird for him. To me, being in a relationship and being committed are still somewhat synonymous. It's too big a risk to take; rather he is too good a friend to take a risk with. Avijit is my best BEST friend! He has been...

The Wait.... Days passed... The reporting date was nearing. So many affidavits and lots of other documentation. She got busy with her college thing, took admission in some south campus college, but then again the obsession with the glamorous "North Campus"!  Here my life was hanging in mid air! I get it that your E.C.A auditions are important. But Woman!! For me time hasn't moved much, since the "lol" you sent and it's running out at the same time! I had not heard from her. Tried calling but never really called. Didn't want to come across as a "despo". As far as she is concerned, she is either genuinely occupied or just avoiding it. Having known her for so long, I'm sure she must be on her usual course of weighing all possibilities. Given the circumstances, no cell phone, no internet and no time in general, don't help my case either! Hah! One day prior to the scheduled N.D.A special (train), the phone finally beeped. It w...

LOL We were in the same school. Our lives belonged to two separate worlds.... Seldom we spoke... She was this girly girl, pretty down to earth, certainly not the sort who would go 'eeeeeeeeep'. She was a decent, aware and a smart person. Perhaps that is what made her different. We would travel in the same school bus. Being the senior most lot. I and my bunch of guy friends would do shit crazy stuff to people on two wheeler s . Those bus journeys were the times when we started to interact and got talking. Our XII boards were over and that was the period of absolute ' vellapanti '. I had given the NDA exam and somehow managed to successfully clear it. Although S.S.B (Service Selection Board) and merit list were still left. I was the coolest person alive! My life was set! The ones who had the "O so cool IIT"s in mind were going to whichever places they managed to get. Thank God! For if it was not the NDA, only God knows where i'd be. The + - squares and...

Relationships are overrated and well break ups.. its a confusing concept.... especially in today's era of PD-E (public display of emotions), which can be read as facebook, it's even more complicated. you get together, you giggle and laugh and everything is rosy and beautiful and so is your wall with love songs and lovey dovey quotes. Then whoosh all of a sudden its all a BIG MISTAKE! Then begins the phase of all sorts of hatred filled updates. Why does it have to be branded as a MISTAKE! and why the sudden transformation of love to pure hatred?? Respect the bond you shared, respect the times that made you genuinely happy. Remember that you got into it because back then it made you happy, back then it did mean something to you!  You should be glad that it happened, that at least you spent some time that made you smile your best smile and moments that swept you off your feet.  Big deal it didn't work! you were two people who wanted different things from life and...

The sun is about to meet the horizon the sky is like a canvass with the most beautiful shades of orange and purple spread across the frame.... I am walking on the sidewalk grumbling about the cancelled moot trial.... and something caught my eye.... an old lady draped in a worn out saree with her hair all gray.. she comes out of her house a poorly constructed one wit the white wash half washed away due to these rains uurrrrggghhh.... Delhi roads and rains so don't go well together well anyway..... i see the old lady come out and she stands in front of the few dirty pots and lights a match sticka sudden thought strikes me that probably i complain and whine too much.. look at this lady even though she is bereft of all the materialistic pleasures still she would light a 'diya' in front of the 'tulsi' and offer her evening prayers and probably thank the supernatural for what ever she has! for the rickety scooter that is parked for at least it moves... and the falling ro...

The end of winters was nearing and a few tiny little buds had statrted to yawn. In that magnificent stone bungalow of the National Defense Academy a little baby girl was born to the most beautiful couple!! Probably that's where my fascination with the Army can be traced back to. For back then all i must have heard and watched must have been the drill commands  and cadets with weird hair cuts running with their bicycle on their shoulders!That is when it all began tat is wen this beautiful journey began!   As soon as i learnt to walk and started to grasp things, i was instructed to behave and sit quietly in the Mess. Mumma's "DON'T TOUCH" glare wen we got anywhere near the Mess trophy lol I still remember that! Those dining in and out speeches during which all the Unit kids used to be locked in the T.V Room and good lord! all the kids going wild inside specially the neverending fight of who will have the remote :D Finally when we used to be let loose we...