I BELIEVE

                                                                            A moment in the darkness, an attempt to escape, to where reality doesn't steal the joys of today; The faint luminescence of hope in the far off lands, the strong presence of our clasped hands; The comforting nostalgia of the past so fond, even evil would succumb to it with a song; It's a path less traveled,  wouldn't fear to even create a new trail; till the time you stand by me, there ain't no sea we can't sail; It's the unexplored ocean, the winds are bound to get rough; just the thought of being together till the end, makes it look less tough; "Times will get trying and I might slip and fall, It's then I'll need you to help me again stand tall; Stronger I sh...

It was only yesterday, when i went to a new place called School; Where we saw the world of black and white, and where ' master ji' would cane us fools; Very soon I was the big boy of the house, who had to get a job and step out; Thrilled I was, for I was getting a salary, post and perks made me swell with pride without a doubt! Next I was asked to marry this lady, who brought little kids in my life; Made me quit my cigar and scotch, had to bend down for she was the wife! Then she worried of the kids getting settled, luckily we found beautiful brides; Next we got the "happy news", they said it was time for gray hair to not hide; Today I'm retired and apparently live in peace, but what's not peaceful is the thought, That when did I grow this old? just when "aah now we're oldies" lose its sarcasm? When did my life even for once stop being directed by what I was expected to do? Just when did I have the chance to live, live ...

Hold on to every moment, breathe a breath of life; live being overjoyed or let down, be clever and at times a little naive; Breathe a breath of life, soak in this moment; for whatever it may be, if not this hour, the ones to come will explain and you'll see; Life is a big canvas, a stroke of gloom and some more of smiles; there IS a perfect ending, take a step and walk those miles; Do remember, it's your life and no one lives it for you, and destiny dear, is a matter of choice; Nevertheless, it'll be good,  for after all, even the broken roads will be tread by us two~~**

Some promises made, Some more broken, Reasoned decisions, unreasonably quashed, Most meaningful words, meaninglessly claimed, It was love............ just a little loveless. 

Would you look at the phone and wait for it to ring? Would you wish for a miracle  that tomorrow could bring? Would you realize that my existence is a past? That our together forever promises weren't to last? Would you curse destiny? Would you blame fate? Would your magic and wonder change to hate? Would you wish for another moment to cling on to? Would you just do anything hoping it's life you could woo? Would you wish to rewrite some truth some episode? Would you hope we had traversed a different road? Would there be things for me to know? And others inability to appreciate disappoints you so.. Would you grow over? Would you move on? Or would there be a piece of you which will forever hold on........? P.S- Life's too uncertain and at times very unfair. Value life and value people who form a part of yours.

You're the first best friend  The first enemy too The first to tell how "uncool" I was and it was time to give up dolls and shift to cooler stuff You were also the one to go fight and get the Rabbit back for I started to cry or may be you made me cry so we got it back :P The one who cleverly pulled a chair right next to the stage to put dialogues in my mouth for it was my first time on stage My first strict poem recitation instructor :D The one to push me into curricular activities  The one to bring me back to reality for I'm a crazy dreamer The one who fills my wardrobe with "wearable clothes" The one who makes me less tech challenged  The one to click pretty pictures of mine and tell me how I suck at photography  The one who took me to a disc for the first time and gets me Google goodies :D AND the one who finds all this very sissy but still loves me big time!  As you turn  a year older today ...

Know what it feels to be stuck, Reasoning at times and at others just cursing luck;  At first there was no will  So deep I've fallen that now it's a treacherous climb uphill; Every rendezvous makes me question why, Sometimes myself, why I just can't seem to say a good bye; Its two steps forward and a leap behind,  There's got to be a way which I refuse to find; You're oblivious of this fact,  That's what compels you to question your acts; May be you'll understand, but I'm certain you will not, How do I even begin to explain in what I'm caught?  I am not being a good friend, but was I ever one? Or was it just along the way, I found being with you was fun; So far we've come and yet I haven't moved a shoe, long gone are the days of battling the blues;  When will I accept what is, And give up on what'll never be? Or may be sometime someday,  You'll eventually see;  Life'...

Things work if you make them work. It takes a lot but it's you who has to decide, if after all its worth it. Be it relationships or friendships or something in between.... All you need to do is prioritize. Who says life's a cakewalk and same goes for things it brings with it. Couples breaking up, friends drifting apart and the tricky problems of the so called friend-zoned. Nothing is permanent.... not even us. So if you made memories together how do you expect that times aren't going to get trying? You always have the option of saying Bah! Shit Happens! But at the same time you also have the option of valuing what you have and working to put the falling pieces together. It's not easy rather really difficult but the choice is yours.... it's you who decides whether it's worth the effort. Relationships are the most tricky things. Emotions are vulnerable there. Too raw and too untainted. Problems arise and you have to deal with it. Nobody's perfect, even yo...

A Cadets love story All day i kept finding time and guts to make the call. Finally, got the phone free as well. Trust me; the nervousness was more than my first jump from the ten meter board! Trin... trin...... (%$#@&*)...... Trin.... trin..... "Hi! Busy are you?". "Took so long, to take the call." " Avijit !!!!".  Khyati screamed. "Where on earth have you been?? and no no not busy. Unknown, outside Delhi number so i wondered.....ANYWAY... How are you? Finally got time to call eh? Didn't even tell me before leaving, you jackass!" {{Yea sure! you stood me up.. switched off your phone and acted like a psycho and I get to be the jackass}}  Well of course this was just me speaking to myself. All I could manage to say really was, "hmm.... ya... got busy..". "You tell me how are things at your end?" I have no idea in which inauspicious hour I asked this question and BAM the dam of stories broke.... from ragging, ...

She speaks..... What to do? When you have to choose between what is right and what makes you happy. Although going with what makes you happy is always the rosier option but they say, what is right will eventually make you happy.  I was not sure, I just couldn't reach a decision so escaping the situation was the easiest way out and that's exactly what I did. Yes, I stood him up. What could I possibly tell Avijit? How could I ever explain the mess I had created in my head which ultimately made things messier. He's the kind, who would take life as it comes. Thinking and planning just don't exist in his dictionary. Telling him that, "even though the feelings are mutual, I can't get into a relationship with you", would have made things weird for him. To me, being in a relationship and being committed are still somewhat synonymous. It's too big a risk to take; rather he is too good a friend to take a risk with. Avijit is my best BEST friend! He has been...

The Wait.... Days passed... The reporting date was nearing. So many affidavits and lots of other documentation. She got busy with her college thing, took admission in some south campus college, but then again the obsession with the glamorous "North Campus"!  Here my life was hanging in mid air! I get it that your E.C.A auditions are important. But Woman!! For me time hasn't moved much, since the "lol" you sent and it's running out at the same time! I had not heard from her. Tried calling but never really called. Didn't want to come across as a "despo". As far as she is concerned, she is either genuinely occupied or just avoiding it. Having known her for so long, I'm sure she must be on her usual course of weighing all possibilities. Given the circumstances, no cell phone, no internet and no time in general, don't help my case either! Hah! One day prior to the scheduled N.D.A special (train), the phone finally beeped. It w...

LOL We were in the same school. Our lives belonged to two separate worlds.... Seldom we spoke... She was this girly girl, pretty down to earth, certainly not the sort who would go 'eeeeeeeeep'. She was a decent, aware and a smart person. Perhaps that is what made her different. We would travel in the same school bus. Being the senior most lot. I and my bunch of guy friends would do shit crazy stuff to people on two wheeler s . Those bus journeys were the times when we started to interact and got talking. Our XII boards were over and that was the period of absolute ' vellapanti '. I had given the NDA exam and somehow managed to successfully clear it. Although S.S.B (Service Selection Board) and merit list were still left. I was the coolest person alive! My life was set! The ones who had the "O so cool IIT"s in mind were going to whichever places they managed to get. Thank God! For if it was not the NDA, only God knows where i'd be. The + - squares and...